So we’ve all been there, we’ve all got the buzz, and the ‘this is new’ vibe; you know what I’m talking about.
It’s all fun and games, until it’s no longer fun and games anymore – something breaks, you realise you’re not as OK with something as you where, things aren’t as good as they were promised to be, or you realise or understand that you have made a bad decision.
Now, do you ponder over it, worry about it and then strap yourself back up again and start from the beginning again with a change somewhere? Or do you ignore it?
I have a tendency to ignore it, just bumble along, and be too lazy to change something until I am up the proverbial creek without a paddle. And then I get frustrated with myself. Do I learn? Do I ever try and change it again?
Because, I struggle with changing things when the problem is in my court – I struggle to consider myself important enough to change something for my benefit. For me. I am not important enough to me.
I don’t want other people to be at a loose-end because of me, because of my decisions, or because I have a problem with something or how it works. I like to try and change my way of thinking in order to remedy the situation.
Now then, what is the point or merit in all of this you ask?
There is very little merit in the whole process, in the moment, but in the long run…
You end up being able to have a good analysis of your own way of thinking – before judging somebody’s approach. But also being able to look at the person’s thinking as if you were in their shoes.
And you end up becoming very aware of what you want out of something – and very good at trying to make a good decision to start with rather than giving chance for self-hurting.
I have to enable my mind and soul to allow that hearty sprinkling of salt whenever I make a mistake – that it is not me that is in the wrong but actually just the circumstance doesn’t suit those involved. Not every horse works with every bit…
Am I the only one who does this?