This week has been eye opener – I have not discovered a new method of driving or a new way to eat my freshly toasted toast with melted butter and Marmite… or discovered that my Earl Grey tea must brew for 3 minutes (as per the guidelines) to get the best tea. I still hold that that is not correct – and I prefer 30 seconds of brewing if you’re required to make my hot beverage of choice, just FYI.
This week started with Easter, most people get to eat lots of chocolate, and go for scenic walks… my family don’t do things in halves – we crucified an unassuming member of the village community on a cross and did a re enactment of the crucifixion. And then enjoyed chocolate and an array of different drinks parties.. all in all, a lot of laughter, happiness and love. A lot of love.
Love, laughter and happiness represents weights off shoulders and being free… this is where we are going today… this will go quite deep. Hang on in there…
Every new born gets a parent, gets a guardian and gets a loving person to nurture them into life, and into the thresholds of making their own decisions and their own mistakes. Mistakes are the best, mistakes help you discover who you are and what you wanting to do in life, morally or just in general – for example, if you drink Yorkshire Tea one day, out of politeness, and you experience what I experienced, then you know you will never have Yorkshire Tea in your house when you’re older… a useful mistake!
So on that subject, I read a devotionals book every morning before getting out of bed, by Oswald Chambers, and have been doing for about 4 years… not every day but this last few months, I have got back into it. Each day, you get a verse from the Bible, a bit of chatter and then a ‘To Do’ box, that basically concludes the day’s writings and over the last week or so, something has really struck me.. and encouraged me.
I’ll give you some context. I like to carry people, metaphorically. I like to lift people out of their troubles and try to enable them to get their feet onto the ground again. I like to be a shoulder to cry on and I LOVE the idea of the whole world loving each other… cue Miss Congeniality – ‘I want world peace’.
Every time I see someone who is suffering or in pain, I want to try and help them, protect them. I don’t tell the person, but I pray for them. I pray so much sometimes that it diverts me from others. I love to pray and watch the change in someone, they don’t know it is happening and sometimes I don’t know an change is happening but it does. God knows it does.
There is an emotional downfall to being the shoulder – you get stuck, you get stuck with the length of your list and a few too many people that you feel need all the same attention and there just isn’t enough time in the day and enough space in the prayer journal… especially for the whole world. This is where my realisation and relief came this week.
I am self inflicting myself with guilt, frustration, annoyance and expectations that are unnecessary. I feel like I have to pray for everyone, every day. All deserving equal lengths of time… and equal attention. However, this week, I have come to the knowledge and understanding that in fact…
God has got them – I don’t need to pray for them, every single day… I don’t need to pray for everyone every day… and, in fact, it is healthier to have a day of the week that you pray for that person, or you check in with them or whatever it may be that helps it all along.
My devotion pages (see images) shows that – the ‘To Do’ section – the black box – says ‘Bring a friend to God. Get out of the way. God’s done this before. Remember?’
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you.
Sure, I knew that God had done it before this week, I’ve only been around for 23 years and many of those I didn’t bother praying and he’s being around way before anything came around… but for some reason, I needed reminding. I am not God, and thank you Jesus for that. As the song says ‘He’s got the whole wide world in his hands’. And that is the best Easter message I could have received this year.
I can give him my people, in one prayer, and he’s got them. I just need to check in with them and keep the prayer tank filled up but I don’t have to feel guilty about it because he is in control – he is there to lift my struggles and my weights…
You’re the best struggle carrier Jesus, cheers.
I warned you it would go deep. I warned you.
The relief is massive and the guilt does not need to be there.
Get your struggles to that big man in the sky – don’t worry if you haven’t for about 40 years, or you never have, or you do everyday. Get them sent… it’s like a rucksack being carried by your best friend on Duke of Edinburgh… do it. do it. do it.
I’m going back to the year’s supply of chocolate that I have got to get through. Live on Easter!
Roll on the Summer bikini bod.